Pregnancy so far...

I am 8 1/2 weeks pregnant. I'll try to give you an idea of how I've felt for the past while. Imagine you are on a boat. You've never been sea sick before, you don't see it coming. Then one day your stomach gets a little queasy. Odd. The next day it happens again, but longer this time. Then on the third day, you're lying over boat's edge trying to think about anything but nausea... you never actually puke, but often wish you could just so you'd feel some momentary relief. That's how I feel about 80% of the time. I try to not get hungry, but everything smells weird and I don't have the biggest appetite. I cook about once a week which makes me so sad, and I think my husband is disoriented by this more than he cares to admit :)  I've been craving mozzerella sticks and lemon water ice. I'm disgusted by the amount of corn syrup in the water ice and know I can make some awesome homemade honey-rosemary lemon popsicles, but it's hilarious to imagine I'll get up that much energy anytime soon. Because worse than the nausea is the fatigue. I thought I had been tired before, but obviously not. My night owl has been murdered and is replaced by a zombie owl. I feel completely unalive sometimes. It hurts to be awake for a good part of the day. It's continually like someone woke me up at 3:30 a.m. If I put dishes away I feel on top of the world - look what I did!!  I do not understand how people feel like this and also raise other little ones! 

There are lots of other symptoms that I won't bore you with, and all of which I'm assuming will magically disappear in 3 1/2 weeks. Right? But even with all these 'complaints', I can't even say it without quotes. How can I complain? We're having a baby!  As much as I know how it happened, I still can't believe how it happened. The more I learn about the science of fetal development the more miraculous it seems. It's so funny - it's the most natural, common thing but I mean it's INSANE that it all works out even just once. 

Our due date is November 21st. That's also puppy's training deadline!